"I already made up my mind, sorry but I'm calling this for a quit."
Well, that was it. No matter how hard I try to persuade her that time, she won't budge with her decision. And finally, after 2 years we had been together it's finally comes to an end.
It happened somewhere a week before Hari Raya Aidilfitri. She kept avoiding me, she did not answer my phone call and she did not even reply my message. As usual, I thought she was tired with her work since she was working on night shift. Turned out that I was wrong, she had her own motive.
To be honest, I could not face the fact that she asked for a break up. Well we just met somewhere in July, if I'm not mistaken. We went for a holiday together, it was indeed the sweetest moment in my life. She came to Ipoh for a week, we did so many things together; we went for shopping, watched movie and so on. By the time she had to go back to Johor, I saw her cried on the way to the bus station.
A week after that, we kept talking about how much we both missed each other. I was so happy, and for the first time I asked her when she will be coming to Ipoh again. I changed my eating habits, since she said she would like it better if I managed to gain some weight. I even changed my daily routine, I stopped going out with my friends at night just to keep her accompany everyday. Because I never grow tired listening to her voice every night, or reading all the messages she sent to me. All I did, I tried all my best to make her happy.
On the 2nd night of Hari Raya, I met with my best friend and asked for his help. If I failed to persuade her, I thought my friend could help me to convince her about my feeling. He advised me to give her some time to think it over, and he said if she really love me she would come back to me eventually. Listening to what he said made me relief... for a while.
During the last phone call, she told me she had changed her phone number. Somehow I got the hint that things would get much worse. And when I asked her if she only took this as temporary break up, she said no.
I could not remember how many days I cried, how many days I did not sleep, how many days I shoved away all the food served right in front of me.
I know things won't be like what it used to be. I know there's nothing I could do now, except waiting for her. I don't know how long will it takes, but I will try to wait.
I don't wish for a farewell, I don't wish for a goodbye...
in memory
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