Due to some technical issues, I won't be posting blog for awhile. Well I'm not even sure for how long. Meantime, I need to figure out how to get RM1k over to repair my computer; need to change the power supply, graphic card, motherboard and processor. Sounds like I have to buy a new computer.
p/s: the time is now 11:51 pm and I'm currently stuck at the cybercafe, it's raining heavily outside~
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Forgetting Who?
Another boring Tuesday evening, so I decided to watch a movie with my brother since we had nothing fun to do. We could have online instead, but the connection ping was like uh... crazy. Curse you Screamyx >________< I asked him what movie should we watch and he said something about Marshall. I checked from the album and I told him that I could not find the CD that he asked for. So i handed over the album and he took out a CD with the title "Forgetting Sarah Marshall". Don't blame me. *pointing at the album* The album was totally messed up. Some of them was not in their right cover. Anyway, I had no idea what was the movie all about until I watched some of the scenes.
Synopsis:
"In desperate need of a vacation after being unceremoniously dumped by his TV- star girlfriend, a man travels to a lavish Hawaiian resort to nurse his wounds and forget his heartache, only to discover that his ex and her handsome new boyfriend are currently staying at the exact same island hot spot. Peter Bretter may be just another struggling musician, but for the past six years he's been dating Sarah Marshall, on of the hottest stars on television. Sarah is everything in the world for Peter, so when she kindly but firmly tells him that they should each go their separate ways, he is absolutely devastated. Later, after attempting to salvage his ego by awkwardly attempting to become a womanizer and nearly losing his job because of a nervous breakdown, an emotionally fragile Peter attempts to put the past behind him by escaping to the sun- soaked beaches of Oahu. While at first it seems as if Peter has discovered the perfect prescription of lost love, his plan soon turns to dust when Sarah and her new rock- star boyfriend, Aldous turn up at the exact same resort. Thought accepting Sarah's lavish new lifestyle won't be easy for the crestfallen Peter, the laid- back companionship of flirtatious resort employee Rachel-- not to mention a continuous regimen of fruity cocktails-- goes a long way in mending the wounds of a broken heart."
Seriously, this is a must- watch comedy movie. But it contains sexual content, language and some graphic nudity. So think wisely before watching LOL. Don't say that I did not warn you ^__________^
Yep, I'm off for now. See ya!
Cast: Jason Segel, Kristen Bell, Mila Kunis, Russel Brand, Bill Hader
Director: Nick Stoller
Genres: Romantic comedy, Comedy
Synopsis:
"In desperate need of a vacation after being unceremoniously dumped by his TV- star girlfriend, a man travels to a lavish Hawaiian resort to nurse his wounds and forget his heartache, only to discover that his ex and her handsome new boyfriend are currently staying at the exact same island hot spot. Peter Bretter may be just another struggling musician, but for the past six years he's been dating Sarah Marshall, on of the hottest stars on television. Sarah is everything in the world for Peter, so when she kindly but firmly tells him that they should each go their separate ways, he is absolutely devastated. Later, after attempting to salvage his ego by awkwardly attempting to become a womanizer and nearly losing his job because of a nervous breakdown, an emotionally fragile Peter attempts to put the past behind him by escaping to the sun- soaked beaches of Oahu. While at first it seems as if Peter has discovered the perfect prescription of lost love, his plan soon turns to dust when Sarah and her new rock- star boyfriend, Aldous turn up at the exact same resort. Thought accepting Sarah's lavish new lifestyle won't be easy for the crestfallen Peter, the laid- back companionship of flirtatious resort employee Rachel-- not to mention a continuous regimen of fruity cocktails-- goes a long way in mending the wounds of a broken heart."
Seriously, this is a must- watch comedy movie. But it contains sexual content, language and some graphic nudity. So think wisely before watching LOL. Don't say that I did not warn you ^__________^
Yep, I'm off for now. See ya!
Cast: Jason Segel, Kristen Bell, Mila Kunis, Russel Brand, Bill HaderDirector: Nick Stoller
Genres: Romantic comedy, Comedy
Monday, October 20, 2008
911 is not an emergency number, it's a TRAGEDY- Interlude
Finally, the moment I fear most...
"I already made up my mind, sorry but I'm calling this for a quit."
Well, that was it. No matter how hard I try to persuade her that time, she won't budge with her decision. And finally, after 2 years we had been together it's finally comes to an end.
It happened somewhere a week before Hari Raya Aidilfitri. She kept avoiding me, she did not answer my phone call and she did not even reply my message. As usual, I thought she was tired with her work since she was working on night shift. Turned out that I was wrong, she had her own motive.
To be honest, I could not face the fact that she asked for a break up. Well we just met somewhere in July, if I'm not mistaken. We went for a holiday together, it was indeed the sweetest moment in my life. She came to Ipoh for a week, we did so many things together; we went for shopping, watched movie and so on. By the time she had to go back to Johor, I saw her cried on the way to the bus station.
A week after that, we kept talking about how much we both missed each other. I was so happy, and for the first time I asked her when she will be coming to Ipoh again. I changed my eating habits, since she said she would like it better if I managed to gain some weight. I even changed my daily routine, I stopped going out with my friends at night just to keep her accompany everyday. Because I never grow tired listening to her voice every night, or reading all the messages she sent to me. All I did, I tried all my best to make her happy.
On the 2nd night of Hari Raya, I met with my best friend and asked for his help. If I failed to persuade her, I thought my friend could help me to convince her about my feeling. He advised me to give her some time to think it over, and he said if she really love me she would come back to me eventually. Listening to what he said made me relief... for a while.
During the last phone call, she told me she had changed her phone number. Somehow I got the hint that things would get much worse. And when I asked her if she only took this as temporary break up, she said no.
I could not remember how many days I cried, how many days I did not sleep, how many days I shoved away all the food served right in front of me.
I know things won't be like what it used to be. I know there's nothing I could do now, except waiting for her. I don't know how long will it takes, but I will try to wait.
I don't wish for a farewell, I don't wish for a goodbye...
in memory
"I already made up my mind, sorry but I'm calling this for a quit."
Well, that was it. No matter how hard I try to persuade her that time, she won't budge with her decision. And finally, after 2 years we had been together it's finally comes to an end.
It happened somewhere a week before Hari Raya Aidilfitri. She kept avoiding me, she did not answer my phone call and she did not even reply my message. As usual, I thought she was tired with her work since she was working on night shift. Turned out that I was wrong, she had her own motive.
To be honest, I could not face the fact that she asked for a break up. Well we just met somewhere in July, if I'm not mistaken. We went for a holiday together, it was indeed the sweetest moment in my life. She came to Ipoh for a week, we did so many things together; we went for shopping, watched movie and so on. By the time she had to go back to Johor, I saw her cried on the way to the bus station.
A week after that, we kept talking about how much we both missed each other. I was so happy, and for the first time I asked her when she will be coming to Ipoh again. I changed my eating habits, since she said she would like it better if I managed to gain some weight. I even changed my daily routine, I stopped going out with my friends at night just to keep her accompany everyday. Because I never grow tired listening to her voice every night, or reading all the messages she sent to me. All I did, I tried all my best to make her happy.
On the 2nd night of Hari Raya, I met with my best friend and asked for his help. If I failed to persuade her, I thought my friend could help me to convince her about my feeling. He advised me to give her some time to think it over, and he said if she really love me she would come back to me eventually. Listening to what he said made me relief... for a while.
During the last phone call, she told me she had changed her phone number. Somehow I got the hint that things would get much worse. And when I asked her if she only took this as temporary break up, she said no.
I could not remember how many days I cried, how many days I did not sleep, how many days I shoved away all the food served right in front of me.
I know things won't be like what it used to be. I know there's nothing I could do now, except waiting for her. I don't know how long will it takes, but I will try to wait.
I don't wish for a farewell, I don't wish for a goodbye...
in memory
Sunday, October 19, 2008
911 is not an emergency number, it's a TRAGEDY- Epilogue
*This blog was originally from my spaces.live dated November 14. Edit for some error*
" I'm sorry we can't continue on like this.
" Huh?
" I know what I'll have to say next could be hurtful, but could we just be... friend?
" I don't get it. Why?
" ...
" Why? Answer me, please!
" I'm sorry...
" Sorry won't change anything, and you know it.
" Yes I know, therefore I'm sorry.
" ...
There was a long pause, both of us just remain there in silence.
I stared at the wall, seeing nothing but complete blank.
It was too real for a dream, which I knew I was not dreaming at that time.
But I was too stubborn, I thought that this was only a dream; a nightmare and everything would be fine once I woke up.
Too bad, it was not.
" Are you happy with this? Happy that we ended up this way?
" ...
" Talk to me, please.
" I'm sorry, it's impossible for us to continue. Please forgive me.
The answer stabbed deep inside of me.
Don't cry, I can't lose now but tears started to flow and I knew that I had lost.
No matter how hard I tried to make it stop, it just won't.
The story once I promised her would continue has finally comes to an end.
The story once I promised her I would tell her before she goes to sleep, well I'm not sure if there is any left to tell.
But I still remember well how the story started...
October, 2006.
It was more like a net love back then.
Sounds not too promising, yes I would not argue about it.
But even though we never see each other before, both at different places, we knew we were serious.
And when she had to go to the National Service, I was left alone for 3 months.
We could only instant messaging during the weekends, and during those months I felt alone and empty.
Only her messages would kept me accompany and I would read it over and over again.
By the time she was done with the National Service, she made me a promise.
A promise that she would come and find me.
I was scared, I was supposed to be excited when I heard that she was coming all the way for me.
Surprisingly, she felt the same.
It really does not matter to me how she would look like, I knew her heart very well.
And that reason is more than enough for me to keep loving her.
April, 2007.
She came to Ipoh with her friend.
My best friend kept teasing me, and telling me silly jokes about her.
I totally ignored it, why should I listen?
And when we finally met at Jusco, I was completely stunned over there.
I just don't know what to do.
Can I hug her? No, I can't!
In fact, I just stood there looking at her.
Her smile melt me deep down inside.
As we walked inside the mall, we held our hand for the first time.
Nervous and scared, that was what I felt.
We spent 3 days together, and when she was about to leave I was really sad.
I don't know when chances like this would happen again.
Knowing that made me think that I don't want to let her go, though I know she could not stay here for long.
I doubted our relation would work, but it turned out that it was still blooming and I was really happy.
Few months later she told me that she was going to work in Singapore.
It was really tough at first, took me long enough to get used with the situation.
It was more like the time when she had to leave me for the National Service.
October, 2007.
It was our first year of anniversary.
I wished that we could love each other forever and she wished for me the same.
Things were normal until one day, I noticed that she was trying to avoid me for more than a week.
I thought that she was tired with her work, so I told myself not to worry much about it.
But I could not help but to ask when she kept avoiding me.
And then, I got the answers...
Why?
Is desire to be with each other is still not strong enough?
Why people have to decide our fate when we could choose our own?
Why do we have to sacrifice our own happiness for other people's sake?
Why?
I can't afford to lose her, she means everything to me.
But how can I win her back?
The heart once we shared together.
How?
Somebody please tell me how?!
For few days I could not sleep, I'm not sure whether it was just a dream or was it not.
I read all her messages, one by one, over and over again.
I forced myself to smile while reading those, even though I was actually crying.
I kept thinking the days we spent together last time.
How much I miss to kiss her, how much I miss to hug her again.
And I miss hers badly.
She wants me to blame her for what had happened.
To be honest, I don't know whom should I blame.
I blamed myself for not treating her well,
For not being able to fulfill her wishes,
For not being a good boyfriend.
Yes I would put all the blames on myself, there is no doubt about it.
My dear Hui Wern,
I would not think our story has comes to an end.
I would not let it end this way, no I won't.
Please give me some time for me to fix the story, to make it a better ending.
An ending that we both want.
Please wait for me, I would come back to you.
Put all your faith in me, don't ever leave me again.
Don't lie to yourself nor to your heart, be honest.
I love you, and I always will...
" I'm sorry we can't continue on like this.
" Huh?
" I know what I'll have to say next could be hurtful, but could we just be... friend?
" I don't get it. Why?
" ...
" Why? Answer me, please!
" I'm sorry...
" Sorry won't change anything, and you know it.
" Yes I know, therefore I'm sorry.
" ...
There was a long pause, both of us just remain there in silence.
I stared at the wall, seeing nothing but complete blank.
It was too real for a dream, which I knew I was not dreaming at that time.
But I was too stubborn, I thought that this was only a dream; a nightmare and everything would be fine once I woke up.
Too bad, it was not.
" Are you happy with this? Happy that we ended up this way?
" ...
" Talk to me, please.
" I'm sorry, it's impossible for us to continue. Please forgive me.
The answer stabbed deep inside of me.
Don't cry, I can't lose now but tears started to flow and I knew that I had lost.
No matter how hard I tried to make it stop, it just won't.
The story once I promised her would continue has finally comes to an end.
The story once I promised her I would tell her before she goes to sleep, well I'm not sure if there is any left to tell.
But I still remember well how the story started...
October, 2006.
It was more like a net love back then.
Sounds not too promising, yes I would not argue about it.
But even though we never see each other before, both at different places, we knew we were serious.
And when she had to go to the National Service, I was left alone for 3 months.
We could only instant messaging during the weekends, and during those months I felt alone and empty.
Only her messages would kept me accompany and I would read it over and over again.
By the time she was done with the National Service, she made me a promise.
A promise that she would come and find me.
I was scared, I was supposed to be excited when I heard that she was coming all the way for me.
Surprisingly, she felt the same.
It really does not matter to me how she would look like, I knew her heart very well.
And that reason is more than enough for me to keep loving her.
April, 2007.
She came to Ipoh with her friend.
My best friend kept teasing me, and telling me silly jokes about her.
I totally ignored it, why should I listen?
And when we finally met at Jusco, I was completely stunned over there.
I just don't know what to do.
Can I hug her? No, I can't!
In fact, I just stood there looking at her.
Her smile melt me deep down inside.
As we walked inside the mall, we held our hand for the first time.
Nervous and scared, that was what I felt.
We spent 3 days together, and when she was about to leave I was really sad.
I don't know when chances like this would happen again.
Knowing that made me think that I don't want to let her go, though I know she could not stay here for long.
I doubted our relation would work, but it turned out that it was still blooming and I was really happy.
Few months later she told me that she was going to work in Singapore.
It was really tough at first, took me long enough to get used with the situation.
It was more like the time when she had to leave me for the National Service.
October, 2007.
It was our first year of anniversary.
I wished that we could love each other forever and she wished for me the same.
Things were normal until one day, I noticed that she was trying to avoid me for more than a week.
I thought that she was tired with her work, so I told myself not to worry much about it.
But I could not help but to ask when she kept avoiding me.
And then, I got the answers...
Why?
Is desire to be with each other is still not strong enough?
Why people have to decide our fate when we could choose our own?
Why do we have to sacrifice our own happiness for other people's sake?
Why?
I can't afford to lose her, she means everything to me.
But how can I win her back?
The heart once we shared together.
How?
Somebody please tell me how?!
For few days I could not sleep, I'm not sure whether it was just a dream or was it not.
I read all her messages, one by one, over and over again.
I forced myself to smile while reading those, even though I was actually crying.
I kept thinking the days we spent together last time.
How much I miss to kiss her, how much I miss to hug her again.
And I miss hers badly.
She wants me to blame her for what had happened.
To be honest, I don't know whom should I blame.
I blamed myself for not treating her well,
For not being able to fulfill her wishes,
For not being a good boyfriend.
Yes I would put all the blames on myself, there is no doubt about it.
My dear Hui Wern,
I would not think our story has comes to an end.
I would not let it end this way, no I won't.
Please give me some time for me to fix the story, to make it a better ending.
An ending that we both want.
Please wait for me, I would come back to you.
Put all your faith in me, don't ever leave me again.
Don't lie to yourself nor to your heart, be honest.
I love you, and I always will...
Goodbye.
*This blog was originally from my spaces.live dated March 18. Edit for some spelling error*
Have you ever thought what's your life going to end up in the future?
Honestly, I would simply answer myself "No, I can't". You guys would probably give the same answer, no doubt about it.
Unless you're not that kind of average human being, I wonder if that would makes your life easier or worse.
Friends, do you guys have any?
A simple question with many answers.
Most of you, social type of people would say "Yes, I do".
Unlike me, I don't make friends that much.
Sometimes I thought about my schoolmates.
Where are they now?
Are they still studying? Or working?
So far I only thought about what they do, the word Death itself never cross inside my mind.
I wish they would have a good life, but too bad sometimes thing won't be like what you expect it should be.
Vincent Lee,
I wonder how we started knew each other.
Was it when we were in Form One?
Being in the same class, you taught me so many things.
You helped me the most when I need to improve with my English's skill.
You taught me about grammar, all those past tense.
During the recess time, we both talked about Utopia with the other friends.
And during PE Lesson, I could only watch you struggling to play with the others.
When the final bell rang, we sat outside the school's entrance waiting for our parents.
And we both waved ourselves goodbye...
How long has it been now?
Has it been already 10 years?
And when I heard the news that you already gone, I was startled.
To think that you would die at this young age, I just could not believe with what I heard.
Yes, I knew about the pain you had been suffering for years.
But how I wish you would get better in the future.
I'm really sorry,
Sorry that I was not there.
Sorry that I could not make it to your funeral.
I'm sorry that there was nothing I could do.
And for what had happened, it taught me that things won't last forever.
When the time comes, you have to give it back to it's rightful owner.
Dear Vincent,
Thank you for all those memories.
May your soul rest in peace my beloved friend.
Goodbye...
Have you ever thought what's your life going to end up in the future?
Honestly, I would simply answer myself "No, I can't". You guys would probably give the same answer, no doubt about it.
Unless you're not that kind of average human being, I wonder if that would makes your life easier or worse.
Friends, do you guys have any?
A simple question with many answers.
Most of you, social type of people would say "Yes, I do".
Unlike me, I don't make friends that much.
Sometimes I thought about my schoolmates.
Where are they now?
Are they still studying? Or working?
So far I only thought about what they do, the word Death itself never cross inside my mind.
I wish they would have a good life, but too bad sometimes thing won't be like what you expect it should be.
Vincent Lee,
I wonder how we started knew each other.
Was it when we were in Form One?
Being in the same class, you taught me so many things.
You helped me the most when I need to improve with my English's skill.
You taught me about grammar, all those past tense.
During the recess time, we both talked about Utopia with the other friends.
And during PE Lesson, I could only watch you struggling to play with the others.
When the final bell rang, we sat outside the school's entrance waiting for our parents.
And we both waved ourselves goodbye...
How long has it been now?
Has it been already 10 years?
And when I heard the news that you already gone, I was startled.
To think that you would die at this young age, I just could not believe with what I heard.
Yes, I knew about the pain you had been suffering for years.
But how I wish you would get better in the future.
I'm really sorry,
Sorry that I was not there.
Sorry that I could not make it to your funeral.
I'm sorry that there was nothing I could do.
And for what had happened, it taught me that things won't last forever.
When the time comes, you have to give it back to it's rightful owner.
Dear Vincent,
Thank you for all those memories.
May your soul rest in peace my beloved friend.
Goodbye...
*whispering*
A little info about the crappy author:
The name is Ariff, but i usually go with my nickname sic. Why sic? Don't ask me why, the name just popped out from my head years ago. Maybe it was because at that time I was too obsessed with a band, heck I doubt you would listen to their song. Or maybe it was because I had too many sick since I was little. Sick and sic, hopefully you'll get the idea. I was born in Ipoh on the 25th of February so that would makes me 23 years old now.
Hobby and interest:
Gaming, yeah that's what I do most of the time. I like to explore myself with new online games out there, testing if it's worthy to play or is it simply just wasting your precious time. I defined music as universal, so any kind of genre would be fine to me. Currently addicted listening to J-Rock, Visual Kei, Oshire Kei and Metal bands. I like to hang out with my friends until midnight, trust me couple cup of teh tarik is more than enough for me.
Shout out!:
Yay, finally I have the chance to start blogging again. I would like to thank my new friend, Applist for encouraging me ^_________^ I was totally lost when I started my own account here, no clue about how to start etc. Oh yeah I **** a lot in Html script, duh guess I have to start learning from now on. Hopefully, I would post a lot of blogs here. Last but not least, enjoy reading XD
The name is Ariff, but i usually go with my nickname sic. Why sic? Don't ask me why, the name just popped out from my head years ago. Maybe it was because at that time I was too obsessed with a band, heck I doubt you would listen to their song. Or maybe it was because I had too many sick since I was little. Sick and sic, hopefully you'll get the idea. I was born in Ipoh on the 25th of February so that would makes me 23 years old now.
Hobby and interest:
Gaming, yeah that's what I do most of the time. I like to explore myself with new online games out there, testing if it's worthy to play or is it simply just wasting your precious time. I defined music as universal, so any kind of genre would be fine to me. Currently addicted listening to J-Rock, Visual Kei, Oshire Kei and Metal bands. I like to hang out with my friends until midnight, trust me couple cup of teh tarik is more than enough for me.
Shout out!:
Yay, finally I have the chance to start blogging again. I would like to thank my new friend, Applist for encouraging me ^_________^ I was totally lost when I started my own account here, no clue about how to start etc. Oh yeah I **** a lot in Html script, duh guess I have to start learning from now on. Hopefully, I would post a lot of blogs here. Last but not least, enjoy reading XD
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